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Monday, 27 July 2009

Questions...I'm just asking...just asking....

Every weekend,here at my working place,students would usually have some activities like island hopping. Island hopping is scheduled every Sunday, now it is every other Sunday.
Last week 24th of July, it was on a Saturday. It could have been a special one since an agent who was checking our school was also joining. Special indeed because it turned out to be the worst island hopping that i have ever joined!
It could be a deliberate sabotage or just pure coincedence that everything should go wrong on that day.
First we started so late,in fact we were even an hour late from our original departure. This one has never happened before. We could be late but around 15minutes at most. Several reasons were given why the departure was late. One was there were these group of students who were misinformed about the schedule...misinformed? they were informed about the changes some few days before. Another thing is that one of these students was already there physically and all he need to do is to call his other friends or simply they cancel or join another schedule.
It has happened before that some students were late and they were left behind. What i can't understand is that why wait for a long time with these students. There were more than 30 students already who were waiting and adding to that fact, there is an agent! I thought that the management or the one in charge of the island for that matter knows the fact. I even kept on reminding the in charge about the situation. He just simply said, "we have to wait."... and wait we did!
Why only this time? Several times already that some students were late. We waited for a few minutes and if the student is still not around, they were left behind. They will be given refund later or change their schedule. This one was really different and I felt it was very strange. I was uneasy for my part because there was an agent and we were suppose to treat the agent the best that we can do. It wasn't the case. Another thing is,if we were delayed the van drivers trip will be delayed. They have other passengers to pick up too at a particular time. They complained that with every time delayed they have lost some income. The one in charge won't listen. That made the matter worse. Assemble time is 8:30am and departure time is 9:00am or some few minutes later than that...NOT and NEVER one full hour. There were only few students who were not there on time...FEWER, indeed it is even fewer than 10 students. The students who were there already were more than 30 plus an agent whom we should really give important attention.
What kind of managerial skills this fucking in charge has? I d0n't have a rat's ass's idea!!! He favoured a lesser number of students from an obvious majority and there was even an agent there, who waited patiently before the assembly time and even extended her patience more when she has to endure her motion sickness while sitting on a rocking boat. Some kind of treatment from this manager. I'm sure he will wash his hand on this incident like Pontius Pilate did on giving judgement to crucify Jesus Christ. They will surely pass the blame on someone else and as usual, and they do this regularly, the blame will fall on the subordinates. I won't be surprised if they will pass the blame on the drives or on me!
My bosses are a Koreans and I have been and still here in this company for the past 6 years. Most of the higher management positions are handled by Koreans too. There are good managers and worse managers. There are more good managers, really outnumbering the worse ones but the worse ones do more worse things that someone can't help but to generalise.
Why am I still here? I have many complaints yet still happy with my job. I do really hate one of the bosses to a point of wishing him death and even, at one time, prayed that the cancer of my aunt would transfer to him and let this boss of mine suffer greatly. I still work with the same vigor on the first day i worked here and I'm still willing to go for the extra mile...even without pay. I could have been long gone here if i didn't love my work. Only one person is making my day bad there are more people who are always smiling at me and extend their thanks whenever something is accomplished and to know that many people are satisfied with the things I do has more worth than the pay i got. Another thing that kept me here is the promise I made to some people...from colleagues,managers and owners alike. Once i'm freed from this promise,i'm gone here faster than the light. Several opportunies I let go in favour for this job i have now. I really like what I do and happ with it. Only unhappy with one of the bosses and a handful of managers, who are Koreans too. Even they are few,they are really good hellraisers.

Friday, 24 July 2009















One of those times that we went snorkelling at Hilutungan Reef off the coast of Mactan Island, Cebu.
There are still corals in that reef but it is in a very sad state. It has been said that the area is being developed by a Korean firm and they are planning to rehabilitate the place. In order to achieve this, this firm, authorised by the local government to collect fee for those who enter the area, whether snorkelling or scuba diving.
I have been swimming around this area for several years now but all I noticed is that everytime I go in the water, there are plenty of corals destroyed and a lot of materials that is foreign underwater. I can see more damage than rehab or repair.
There is a change on the island of Hilutungan though. There is this building now that looked like a restaurant. Maybe that's where the money went.
There are still many fish in the area but anemone fish or clownfish, the fish popularised in the movie Finding Nemo, are getting rarer. Before,whenever i go snorkelling,i would always see at least 3 to 5 groups of clownfish. Recently,there are times that i can't find anything...this is really sad.
I hope and pray that whoever or whatever group is trying to rehabilitate the area would really fix it. It would take a while for corals to grow. I hope that the next generation could still see in their natural habitat these fish, not in the aquariums or worse...in books.

Monday, 20 July 2009

Gone for a while

It has been a while that i have visited here. It must have been more than a year already. I think I have some "writer's block" or whatever...or i was just plainly lazy to write anything.
Well,this time,i have plenty to write about and this time it will be more provoking.It might cost me my job,but i don't fucking care anymore.
Some people has to know and I want to tell anything and everything about the stuffs that I see and experience.
May anyone who'll read this can help me on what to do and give their own reactions as well.
Wish me luck!!!^.^

Wednesday, 14 May 2008

acceptance

"Truly loving another means letting go of all expectations. It means full acceptance, even celebration of another's personhood."

-Karen Casey

Monday, 12 May 2008

The 5 months that was...


5 months have passed. Wow, it is almost the middle of the year. What did I do so far? As usual, nothing much. Nothing has improved. Still the usual me only a year older hopefully a full year more mature.

I wonder if I can ever be tamed. Someone almost did,but as usual, she disappeared. I don't want to be tamed now. This is what I do and this is what I will be.

For the past five months there were some changes though...Let's see, to recall...Let's start on January...I started losing weight. Did a dare with someone that I could lose a lot of weight in just 2 weeks. I was able to prove that it can be done. Then before the month ended, I found my way into the kickboxing gym again. Not long after that, sometime on February, I went in the ring and fought 5 fighters in one night. No practise, no work-out, just all in the mind...stupid mind. After the fight,kinda like a tune-up fight, I found out later that i got injured. I broke 2 ribs and tore some musles somewhere on my right rib side. Undergone a therapy because of that and it limited my movement.

March was hell and so was April then May came and I was officially part of system. Meaning! I was able to get a birth certificate! And then i can get a passport. I have an identity!

Prior to that somewhere on April I got apprehended by traffic police because i did not follow some traffic signs. A really stupid one, and more than a moron because i was driving with an expired license. I could have be sent to jail. Luckily the officer let me go with a warning and urged me to renew my driver's license. Which I did and was absent for 2 days in the process. I hate to be absent.

So far, it is the middle of May now. I was suppose to join a 5kilometer open water swimming competition but failed to do so. I did not have enough practise but i did swim again in the middle of a strong rain. I was hoping that a storm would be there on a weekend. Nevertheless, i did enjoy the wave, drank some salty water,burn me eyes, but the feelings of being so free and just let the will of the wave carry you is elating. I will do it again soon...swim in the middle of a thunderstorm. Do I have a death wish? Of course none! This is just the way I celebrate life.

It is almost half-way of the year...let's see what the other half could bring me.

This is what I live by...Learn the lessons of the past, live the present for they will be your past soon, a treasure and let the future take care of itself. The future also depends on what you do today.

Wednesday, 30 April 2008

Universal Prayer

"Universal Prayer"Jamelia and Tiziano Ferro

woh woh~ x3 na na na na

[Verse 1] I'm just the same as you

I could be the same age too

Listen to the same music you do

Everyday

No matter what separates us

The same stars we see at night

No matter what's up against us

Still gonna have dreams burning bright

I believe we fear what we dont know

We can be our own enemy

But if we conquered that

If you take my hand

I see a girl you see a man

[Chorus]

Everybody has the same dream

A dream in their heart

Get a chance to make a life

Love somebody they want

Open your eyes, we're all the same

We've all been scared

So lets sing together now Na na na na

In this universal prayer

woh woh x3 na na na na

[Verse 2]

I see smoking lights

That complicate a simple life

I'm here and you are there

Miles away

All you gotta do Is believe

That anything you want

You can reach

There's no limit to what we could be

so open your mind and set yourself free

I believe we fear what we dont know

We can be our own enemy

But if we conquered that

If you take my hand

I see a girl you see a man

[Chorus]

[Bridge]

And if you say that I'm naive

That I dont understand the world at all

You might be right but it seems to me

That we've come to far to fall

'Cause I believe that tears

Are dried seeds that've sown

The harvest time will come

And all this pain will go

So try to understand

We're just grains of sand

Every woman every man

Woh, woh (x3)Na na na na

[Chorus]

Everybody has the same dream A dream in their heart Get a chance to make a lifeLove somebody they want Open your eyes, we're all the same We've all been scared So lets sing together now Na na na naIn this universal prayer

[Chorus]

Everybody has the same dream A dream in their heart Get a chance to make a lifeLove somebody they want Open your eyes, we're all the same We've all been scared

So lets sing together now Na na na naIn this universal prayer Woh, woh (x3)

Na na na na...

Friday, 4 April 2008

glances


Friday as usual are the tests and today is the last test of these batch of powersim students.

I miss those days when you were here and I would glance at you taking your test. Actually I was hesitant to teach the class when you were here. I don't want to create some controversies. But no one else would teach.With you also, i was able to take a glance of how i could be and i want to be there and see how things are. I hope that it is with you.

To me you are perfect. I have met many people, women to be in particular but nothing compares to you. Indeed everybody is special and have their own strengths and weaknesses but you broke the moulds when i came to know you.

You said that you don't need any inspirations to make you work hard, that is your strength and to add to that you also have the charm and beauty,both the physical and the inner one. Your weakness though is that you sometimes believe that others are better or more beautiful than you and sometimes you are impatient. I may be not a good judge of your characters and of course I have no right to say it, i am just stating what I see in you. You have all the rights to disagree and condemn me for that.

I love you for who you are. The woman you are, the woman that you will be. I love you for everything. May it always be my words.

Thursday, 3 April 2008

I can't wait...


"Patience is a virtue" as the famous adage goes. I have practised it and much as i can I want to live by it and have more, even extend it. I always wait. Because of this, i always have time on my side, but there is one thing that I can't wait. I don't want to wait forever just to say, I love you. So, i say it and because it is what i feel and stronger everyday. Selfish to say, but I need you, the one who completes me but it doesn't have to matter...if it really matter anything to you.Whatever is there to wait, i will wait. I'm am just around and always be there for you.
Distance have separated us but not of the heart.You may give up, it's your choice but i have given you a promise that i will be there for you. The promise band that i gave you means a lot. It shows my devotion for you.
Soon, you will see me and like what i said, i will see you through. I love you very much. I don't know what else to say.

Wednesday, 2 April 2008

same day...




It was a Wednesday when I met you and the sky was downcast too. Today, the sky is downcast and it looked like that it is about to rain. I'm missing you more. That's when we started to have our conversation. I love to look back to that day. My treasure. That day I made a decision that would change my life. I fell in love. You could have heard me saying this many times but i want you to know how i felt and how i would always feel.
I love you because I felt it. I love you because of the way you smile and carry yourself. I could go on, well, you get the gist. Love is really hard to know but on that day when you turned around before you shook my hand i heard this thumping in my chest. I got a heart! And I could feel. Hopeless romantic you might say.


Why do I love you? You could be asking that and how would I do it and how i would make things happen. There could be a lot of questions baffling in your mind. That's the least of your worries. Whoever you with, whatever you are doing, do your best, just do know that I love you. You will know more everyday and that someone like me exists.

Tuesday, 1 April 2008

1st of April




Good day,blossom! How is it for you? I hope that the spring is bringing you nicer things. I dreamt about cherry blossom and I saw on CNN a video of the blooming cherry blossoms. Really nice scene, making me miss you more. That's how I see about you especially when you smile.My blossom.Today is first of April and most of the western countries are celebrating April Fool's day. We don't do it much here in the Philippines but since we are influenced much with the western culture,some people do some tricks or anything to fool other people.Around the world also, they are making this awareness about autism. This day is also World Autism Day. Do you have this thing in the kindergarten where you are working? I had my encounter with an autistic kid before, i think i have told the story already,anyway, it was really a touching situation.I want to know more about them.


For now, this is just mere words since you can't see me but do know that I love you because of who you are. You are the most real person I have ever met. It shows in you actions, it shows in your eyes. That's why you are special to me. Everyday, i'm going to remind you of that. You may get tired of it,ignore it,delete it but it won't stop me from letting me express how i feel for you. I have never felt this real, I have never felt this way. I am going to let you know for the rest of my days. My love for you stays.


I love you.