Missing You...

February 25, the love of my life left Cebu...she went with my heart. I do miss her and more as every moment passed but my love for her grows stronger as the same moment passed.
I am missing the one who completes me but soon we will be together again. Time would tell that and distance would keep us apart but I live in her heart and she is here in mine. Physical is the illusion, THOUGHT is REAL!!!
She may be far from me but each day would also brings us closer. With that thought, I have this new vigor, she made me better and would do and go for further more. I wish for her that she will reach her goal, i'm with her all the way. I will be there for her for the better and even closer with her when it is the worse.
Let the world know that in this place where we live, there are last things and things that last...my LOVE for her IS BOTH.^.^

I know that you are very curious who she is, who is this girl whom i am talking about...in time you will know. Let it be known though that someone owns my heart and I belong to her. For now, let your thoughts be as REAL as you like.

"Ego Dilecto Meo et Dilectus Meus"

A day at the poolside

My usual place in CPILS, the poolside. Early in the morning where everybody is still asleep and teachers are just creeping in, i would stay by the poolside and enjoy the cool breeze. I would read, listen to some music or just lay back and watch the sky.

On this day when i took this picture, the sky was very clear. Not a single cloud was in sight. The breeze was cool and blowing gently. I was reading one of my favourite books. This is one of my most memorable days...I wish i could experience the same kind of feeling i felt today again, some time soon.

For my Blossom, I love you...wherever you are

I love you. It's not a weight you must carry around.

I love you. It's not a box that holds you in.

I love you. It's not a standard you have to bear.

I love you. It's not a sacrifice I make.

I love you. It's not a pedestal you are frozen upon.

I love you. It's not an expectation of perfection.

I love you. It's not my life's whole purpose (or your's).

I love you. It's not to make you change.

I love you. It's not even to make you love me.

I love you. It's as pure and simple as that.

Go On Girl lyrics

Lyrics and Video

Ne-Yo Go On Girl

I can't get it back, but

I don't want it back, I

Realized that,

She don't know how to act

Never been a dumb dude

No I'm not dense

I Just had a slight lack

Of common sense

I was the good guy

She was the bad girl

I'm thinking one girl

She thinking me, earl James and

jimmy

Yep she had plenty

But love for me, she didn't have

any

I was inviting, her into my heart

But she was out riding in some

other man's car

She was my night time, thought I

was her star

Guess I was wrong, but see I'm

strong

Wont take long for me to move on

[Hook:]

Please don't worry bout me I'm

fine

(Please don't worry bout me I'm fine)

Only gonna play the fool one time

(Only gonna play the fool one time)

Trust me when I say

That I'll be OK

Go on girl

(Go on girl)

Go on girl

(Go on girl)

Go on girl



[V2:]

I can't get it back,

butI don't want it back,

IRealized that,

She don't know how to act

Tried to settle down and look what I get

Thought it was my time,

but I guess not yet

She at the bar getting drinks from many men

I'm in the house,

thinking shes with her girlfriends

Trust not knowing,

truly not knowing

I look back now like, man,

I was openI was inviting,

her into my heart

But she was out riding

in some other man's car

She was my night time,

thought I was her star

Guess I was wrong,

but see I'm strong

Wont take long for me to move on

[Hook]

[Bridge]

The mistake I made is clear

(we never should've been together)

Thats the reason you're not here

(I know that I can do much better)

Not a single salty tear

Not a feeling in my chest

Baby I'm feeling no stress

I'm too fly to be depressed

Go on Girl

Go on Girl

Go on Girl

Go on Girl

Quote from Antoine de Saint-Exupery author of THE LITTLE PRINCE

"True love begins when nothing is looked for in return." Antoine De Saint-Exupery

untitled thoughts

my heart was broken

but i was too sad to even cry...

yet i have to stand my test,

i have to take the pain...

it started so fast, it

ended as fast...it was

even faster...

yet i'm happy to finally

feel heartbroken

i'm finally human...

i'm free

i was made to believe

her words were lasting;

"I will never let you go

no matter what," was

what she said.

"My love for you grows

everyday."

All were fleeting,wafted by

the wind to every direction.

You know it was there,

savoured the moment...then

puff...it was gone

Women are really strange. They broke up with you and the next day you see them fresh as the morning dew. Here you are, so devastated and still shocked with was given to you on your face, but they are all smiles as if nothing has ever happened.

I dare not go there again into their world. One has taken my heart already.

I thought that i was ready

to love...and to be hurt.

Maybe I still don't know

what love is. There is no

textbook, no known formula

of how to love.

I have fallen in love with

someone,head over heels, no

doubt about that and she,

somewhat, showed the same

thing on me.(That's what i want to believe)

We had a great time, she just

fell out of love and decided

not to like or love me anymore.

I made a mistake somewhere, i know

i did, for the love that we have

shared has ended.

It was then i realised that

I'm still naive when it comes

to love.

The hurt will pass, the scar will heal

but the happy memories

i will cherish forever.

Will I ever do it again?

With the same person?

All i can say is that she is

a really special person and

with her i felt i was

so alive...

dead for now

Valentine's day! Bah! Humbug!!!

I'm a "scrooge" when it comes to Valentine's day. This is suppose to be a day when we celebrate the day of a saint, Saint Valentine. That is the Christian's teaching's point of view but the Valentine's day that i woke up with is all about business! Selling cards, chocolates and flowers. The prices of these stuffs would skyrocket on Valentine's day. Blame the law of supply and demand but i would blame those brilliant businesspeople.

Love should be shared everyday not just for this day since love is giving.

In few days now it will be February 14. Would i ride the band wagon? No fucking way!!! Do I have a valentine? Hmmm...None!!! Is it the reason why I don't like Valentine's day? No!

I just don't want to trust people anymore, especially women. I had my share of broken hearts of course and finally it stopped breaking. Someone took it and i let her...then disappeared. I don't have a heart anymore to share and I don't want to trust ever again. It is hard to trust humans.

To that girl who took my heart...I love you and I love you always...you told me those words too, i savoured it while it lasted. I believed that, "Love unexpressed is a crime against the heart." Damn! I was so naive to believe and let me guard down. I did have a good time with you, in fact it was the best one and also the darkest. I'll just hang on to those good memories. If you are reading this...BE HAPPY! I wish you the best for you deserve the best.

To the girls whom i will meet in the future, i'm sorry but you are just another person to me. That girl who took my heart changed everything.

Will I still fall in love? NO!!! Not ever, no more!!! Not in this lifetime. Will I change me mind? NO! Do i still love her? YES! She still has my heart. Will I accept her if she will come back to me?...I leave the answers to you.

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ZENSHOOT's World

Who is ZENSHOOT? What is ZENSHOOT? You can have any answers you like. In fact you can even answer this question yourselves. You can see my world the way you want to see it. What you see is not what I see.

Now, I am back into writing. Feel free to give me advise, voice out your opinion and give me whack of reality. I want to learn more and I want to know more.

Readers and fellow bloggers, I am now ready to share my world. Help me know what are the things the world has to offer.

Welcome to my world.

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